Do you really want to realize yourself? Because there’s a chance you don’t.

There's a paradoxical tendency within us to unconsciously sabotage the very process we claim to seek.

Despite the clear benefits and our expressed desire to realize ourselves, there’s a paradoxical tendency within us to unconsciously sabotage the very process we claim to seek.

This might not be the easiest thing to accept, but it’s the truth.

We can sit on our cushion meditating for decades, going merely through the motions of our spiritual practice, feeling as if we have done all that we could. But nothing really changes unless we realize how we unconsciously sabotage our own progress.

Self-realization is an ongoing process and a journey of profound, and often challenging shift.

And since we generally don’t like change, it becomes especially uncomfortable when we find ourselves at the center of this transformative experience.

The unknown can be scary. We fear change, and we like to stick to what’s familiar. We worry about what might happen once we will be self-realized. Maybe sex will no longer be exciting. Or we become as boring as a plant. Or we completely lose our identity. Somehow, we sense that once we pass a threshold, there’s no going back to how we were.

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Self-realization means that we become self-responsible. We can no longer blame somebody for our shortcomings or neurotic behavior. We have to give up our wish that someone else is going to rescue us. Not even a guru.
Perhaps, we not only take responsibility for ourselves but also for all others who find themselves stuck in the process.
We would not be able to go on indulging anymore, watching TV, playing video games or going shopping for clothes and gadgets. Consumerism and self-realization don’t go together.

Only once I saw a guru who got straight to the point by asking her students, ’Why are you all still here?’

Empowering ourselves and following through is harder to do, but the good news is that we are capable of it.

Yours,
cue [kjuː] & ljs [eldʒeɪˈes]

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